It Starts With Food - Day 4

After going to bed so late last night, stressed to say the least, the sleep quality was not high quality!  I am tired.  I am blah.  I am excited.  I am stressed.  The UC is acting up.  I am sure that has to deal with the stress and the coffee.  I have stayed away from the spicy foods for the most part in order to give it time to really heal.  Meds should be here today!  Meds should be here today.  I think that will help me to get over this hump. Still taking prednisone.  I have been taking in the interim while out of Asacol (Delzicol).

I need to eat breakfast, though I need some time to get up and going.  Maybe after huddle is over?  Maybe after I get through a whole water?  Maybe I am just not hungry after all?  Am I starting to see a decrease in my cravings?  I was able to manage the resistance of the pizza temptation last night even when Cara REALLY wanted it.

Well around 10am I needed something light in my stomach and I was not really feeling the eggs this am.  So I grabbed a small bowl of cantaloupe and a handful of black olives and almonds. That will at least tide me over until lunch and was a healthy compromise I think.  I know the goal is to get the proper ratio of protein, fat, veggies, and fruits at every meal but this is really taking a toll on me with all the protein.  I am not used to this much meat. I actually miss my morning bowl of quinoa with peanut butter and banana and cinnamon or oatmeal with apple and cinnamon and a little brown sugar. Again, learning new habits.  I will keep reminding myself of this until I'm sick of it.

Lunch I wanted Chinese after Cara had been talking about it.  Cut up broccoli, carrots, mushrooms, black olives, onion, tomato, green beans, and some chicken.  Sauteed those with a few splashes of tamari and some cracked black pepper.  Pretty good.  Mmm..  Side of cantaloupe.

I just cant beat the cravings today!  90 minutes after eating a large plate I am hungry!  So I am munching on some almonds and water.

AND......I......BROKE!!!!  Under the stress of interviewing for this job and the stress my body was going through I couldn't think clearly.  I wasn't me and that just wasn't going to work!    So I asked Cara is she wanted to go get Mexican.  So we went and it was delightful Chips and salsa, "Mexican Chili", 3 soft tacos.  DELICIOUSO!!!  I enjoyed it tremendously!  The gas later was rough but I felt so much better!

Working through my presentation with Cara being more than supportive I just couldn't break the mental frustration!  I got angry!  I just needed to go to sleep and reset.  So once the presentation was done and clothes were ironed and I was set out and ready for the big day....sleep was had!